Finding Yonder

The post-breakup blues seem to have subsided. I wasn't sad for very long. I knew I wouldn't be. I miss our nightly chats - they made me feel more sociable then I am -but other than that, it's ok.

Tomorrow I've got a dentist and massage appointment.

I'm finding a crush on a friend very inconvinient. I thought I had kicked it in December, but it's come back full force the more I spend time with him. It would be better if I didn't see him every other day, and if he didn't have a girlfriend.

I just keep thinking about him. And resisting the urge to txt him. And then I think about how I shouldn't be thinking about him because it's really just doing myself a disservice, and I therefore think about him some more.

I haven't felt this way in a while - I swear I'm back to being 16 again. You know the feeling that I'm talking about: the one where your stomach goes in knots everytime you think about the possibility of a relationship. When you look forward all week to the day that you get to spend the most time with him. When you're elated on the drive home because you just had so much fun with him. When you realize that the better friends you become, the better looking he gets.

He asked me what the final straw was that made me break up with my (ex)boyfriend. If only he knew...

posted by Lisa @ 12:40 AM